I always have the feeling that this world and the life that I am having right now are not real even though it is so physically presented right in front me. Somehow I feel so strange to be here.
I always have the feeling I am not me, but yet, I am physically here.
In a way, it brings up issues for me here, like… I feel strange talking to people this way and I wonder do I need to do this much? Why does it take so long to accomplish certain tasks?
This feeling has been with me for more than 30 years, but I haven’t really put my attention on it until recently when I started undertaking self contemplation dialogues with my personality.
This feeling trigger even strong after I have read the book The Convoluted Universe: Book One
by Dolores Cannon.
I asked myself, ‘Am I really right. If I don’t fully ground my energy into this life… as in this personality body, then what am I doing here?’
To help me gain the answers to these questions I use a pendulum and the pendulum dowsing charts. I post a question to divine source where I ask, ‘What makes me feel like this world is not real, why am I feeling like this?’
Interesting, the pendulum swung to “Loneliness”
I asked my personality, ‘Do I feel lonely? ‘
Yes, I feel like this world is so strange, I feel disconnected, I feel like I am living in a physical body. I feel like I am not really participating with the people around me and I feel like I am out of this “marketplace”. I feel like I am so alone in this body, it’s like being trapped somewhere and, I feel like I haven’t put enough of my attention and energy into this world.
So, I thought …why not do my best with what I do? I had forgotten that I can reconnect back to the source whenever I wanted because I feel the Angel and the Masters presence with me, and I have been doing this for the past many years, I have my very beautiful family and friends around me in this physical world. Why should I allow this subtle loneliness feeling mingling in my personality and emotional body to be expanded?
I have now decided to choose love, joy, passion and harmony instead of loneliness and separation.
I need to change this personality attitude which is feeling loneliness to excitement so that I can express my energy fully and learn as much as I can in this life time.
So what should I do next to reinforce this positive belief to strengthen this behaviour and thought-forms in this personality?
I realised that I have already created the positive beliefs charts, why not use it? I know I need to cultivate and also ask for guidance on those beliefs that I need to develop further in order to help me align back to source more frequently by using the power of the subconscious mind.
I have created this list called “Positive Belief for Spirituality”. It has helped me to find out which beliefs I need to strengthen further in my subconscious mind to help prevent me from so easily drifting away from daily earthly life. I know this will work because I will be building up these strong positive beliefs in my mind.
“A Belief is only a thought I keep thinking. A Belief is only a thought I continue to think. A belief is only my habit of thought it’s only a practiced thought- a belief is only a thought that I think a lot.”
Abraham and Esther Hicks